I
am exceedingly good at setting impossible and only half-thought out goals for
myself. Case in point: The Hugo
Endurance Project.
You
may have noticed that my posts have become less and less frequent. Often my only posts for weeks are my actual
reviews and it seems every week is harder to post, even those, on time (regardless of when I actually finish the
book). Well, behind my absence of posts,
there is actually a lot going on; I am have been working through some problems. So, since you’re all along for the ride, how
about making some time for the airing of grievances eh?
Issue
1: Finishing books on time. I suck at
that.
Do you remember back when I was reading Stand on Zanzibar and thought I was so clever for choosing to start the book
early because it was “too long”? It’s
funny how I thought I had conquered the Hugos and was rapidly marching my
advance with nothing to stop me.
I am an idiot.
I think I’ve said this before.
So then came Downbelow Station,
and you all know how that went. And the
very next week my wife came home from the library with her hand hidden in the
library bag and just said, “I’m so sorry Jeremy,” and pulled out CYTEEN.
Issue
2: Long distance running. I suck at this
too.
About the same time that I was struggling
through Downbelow Station,
my marathon training schedule was starting to get ridiculous. Up until that point, I had been running in
the evening, often after my daughter was put to bed and because my runs were
always pretty short, I was done quickly and still had some time to spend with
my wife before reading and blogging. But
now while my weekend runs have rocketed to upwards of 15 miles, even my week
day runs have gotten long enough that I just don’t have time to do this and
actually be a part of my family AND read crazy amounts of pages and then talk
like an idiot on the internet about them.
So I started thinking about the early start time
of the Space Coast Marathon – 6:15 am – and said hey, I better get practicing at that time. I figured I’d stumbled
onto the secret to making time for running and for books and from here on out, life
would be peaches. I hadn’t and it isn’t.
Issue
3: Listening to my body. I don’t.
I am always treating my body like I’m still a
little kid. In my mind, I still run my
high school sub 6:00 mile. In my mind, I
can wake up on any given day and my body will do any given thing I ask of it and
I
have super powers. In reality, my
body does not respond the way I want it to, sub 8:00 miles are tough and
recovery seems to take weeks (my wife suggested I’m just getting older which
sounds to me like she is crazy). Unfortunately, I do not have those super
powers, and that is just one of the harsh realizations I’ve had to face up to
since the double-whammy of C.J. Cherryh and miles and miles of training created
the perfect storm of collaboration against me.
ANYWAY, making the switch was way, WAY, harder
than I expected. The first time I ran
eleven miles after waking up, my body almost called it quits. I refused to believe it was my fault. It must
be the heat! Maybe my Camelbak isn’t big
enough? Maybe I just need to do it MORE! Then one morning I was listening to
Foundation’s Edge and thinking, how is it these people, with such incredible
mind control, can still have hidden parts?
And in a moment of inspiration I thought, You do…you don’t listen. You don’t
listen…and you know it. It was a
moment of clarity and intense self-loathing, inspired by none other than 1983’s
Hugo winner (my birth year, freaky huh?).
Issue
4: Following directions. I can’t.
So after some soul searching, I decided I needed
to get serious about making some changes.
I needed to go to bed earlier, wake up earlier, pay more attention and
just keep working hard. So what is the
first thing I do? Decide to start a new
(to us) TV series on Netflix with my wife.
I told myself I needed balance, not just between pages and asphalt, but
with my wife too. I was probably right,
but that led me to continuing to make the same poor sleeping and reading
decisions. The result: I’m still not even half-way through Cyteen and I continued to struggle with waking up early
enough to run before work. So you add
that to all the other rules I’ve broken in the course of this dual challenge
and wow, my record of violations is embarrassing.
But
you know what? Who the hell cares! Despite all my complaining, I’m getting a
heck of a lot better and smarter as a runner (15 miles last Saturday and
another 13 this week); I’ve actually amassed over 200 training miles now. That must count for something…right? I’m also over half-way through the Hugos.
Say
WHAT?!
Yeah.
I’m half done and I’m only behind by one
book. I’ve been listening to more
audiobooks and 24 became too stupid
for me to continue watching so I’m back to slogging through Cyteen so it’s looking like I’ll be back on track
soon. BOOYEAH!
Despite
some of my setbacks and complaints and not being able to follow my own rules, I
feel pretty good about finishing this thing.
In just over 9 weeks, I’ll have run a marathon. About 20 weeks later, I will have read every
single Hugo winner. In terms of my own
personal fantasy-world opinion of myself, I’m kinda feeling like a BOSS right now (not really, I always
feel like crap ;-) ).
In the metric system 322(km) is a bigger number than 200(miles). So, that's a metric awesomeness right there :) It's a lot more in any measuring system that many people have done this year!!
ReplyDeleteI've been putting off Cyteen for quite a while now. And so I did with some other hefty winners. That wasn't necessarily the best decision either. Now I'm faced with these bloody robust works near the end of my goal. 5 more to go, including Cyteen, Blackout/All Clear and Jonathan Strange & Mr Norell! I'm reading Deepness in the Sky next, which is also no walkover.
We don't watch TV, but make no mistake - there are never enough time for reading :)
Of course, me / I suck at English grammar.
DeleteYeah for metric awesomeness!
DeleteOnly 5 more?! Race you. "Last one there saves farts in a milk bottle!" (I'm embarrassed to admit how much I like all the fart jokes in Ender's Game)
Also that sounds so dumb. I wanted to spend time with my wife so we watched frickin TV...What a turd. We don't actually watch TV except for the more cinematic series that are available on netflix and after losing so much reading time, I'm remembering why!
AND, your grammar is fine. It has won you the GMRC review poll thrice!
I am proud of you son! But you will never be the boss if Emme is awake!
ReplyDeleteI second that.
DeleteThanks Mom, but you're wrong. Emmeline rules me even from sleep.
DeleteYou are doing an excellent job being a dad and E always reminds me of that anytime she is sobbing walking the long stretch to the corner. Also, you are a great husband and always walk in the room when i try to yell questions to you through the house. :) Keep it up and you are doing fantastic!
ReplyDeleteWow, you must be a good husband. When my wife yells questions to me, I fully admit that I do not move an inch, and I yell right back.
DeleteNeal- you have no idea! While reading he'll even rub my feet sometimes! :)
Delete@Ali, you are gross. And who is this man you are talking about?! I've never met him.
DeleteKeep up the good work. and about sticking rigorously to the schedule..."A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds."
ReplyDeleteThanks! And go figure, the English major has a great quote :)
Deletepeople born in 1983 are getting older? crap. love your dedication to your goals, but I love more that you are committed to spending time with your wife and child...actually I would hate to hear that reading and reviewing got in the way of your family, or even your health--even if it meant hearing from you less frequently.
ReplyDeletecongrats on your improvements in running!
~L (omphaloskepsis)
HA! No. That's just Ali being absurd, though I certainly can't run like I used to (but that probably has more to do with unhealthy decisions over the past few years).
DeleteThanks though.